Just a feeling.

It's been about 2 weeks since my last blog. Not much has happened really. I'm starting to feel a little sorry for myself, though. I know that what I'm thinking/feeling are probably excuses... but I never have enough energy to do anything about it. My foot is killing me, and it hurts to walk, get up, or do anything. I'm always tired, and I feel like I have no time to get any exercise done. God, even reading this makes me sound like I'm whining.
I just feel so depressed. Like I'm in a vicious cycle. I have no energy to exercise or help fix what's wrong, but I can't fix what's wrong without excercise, but I don't have the energy to. If I do it in the morning, I'll be all sweaty for work. Ain't gonna happen. By the time I get home, my foot is THROBBING and I can barely pull myself up the stairs let alone use the eliptical. I want to, I so want to be healthier, but I can't pull myself out of this cycle. Is it mental?? I'm going to the pharmacy to pick up my pills... but is that going to help?? Is it physical?? I so wish sometimes I can just get lyposuction to get me down 150 lbs so I can start from a weight I was at least comfortable with. I know that's not the answer, but it seems so easier... when I do watch what I eat, it always seems like it doesn't do any good. It's just getting worse, and I don't know how to fix it.
I know it seems I'm feeling sorry for myself. Yeah, it is my blog, and I don't want to depress everyone, but I'm depressed myself. I feel like I'm at the end of my rope and nothing that anyone tries to do makes me feel any better. I dont know what to do, or how to feel. Put it this way... I'm sitting here waiting for a call at work, and I'm tearing up.
Not much else to say so I'm signing off.