Ranting... who am I, Foamy?? (to be explained later)

I'm sitting here listening to Yahoo Launchcast (currently playing INXS' New Sensation) and in the background is Rick's gameboy playing Zelda sounds. We watched the new Smallville tonight and made pasta for dinner. Nothing special happened today, to be honest. Got up before the alarm for once, played some Sims on the way to work, worked, came home, playing Sims on the bus home too, and that was it. We did get our shift bid results at work today, though - I'm 10-6:30pm starting May 2nd for another 6 months. It's better than 11:30-8 so I'm not complaining.

A lot of thoughts have gone through my mind in the past few days. Cassandra, Michele & Bill, Lee-Ann... Cass is the only one I haven't mentioned yet... she does have the address to this blog so I know she's going to read this, but I actually wanted to put into print how great a person she is. In a short amount of time, she has become a very good friend, someone I can trust, someone that trusts me, and an all around great person. We've vented to each other, confided in each other, shared breaks together (and I don't smoke!)... Her and I are still getting to know each other and what makes us tick, but I honestly feel I've made a friend that can continue outside of work. That doesn't happen to me often (I have one total that I used to work with, and she's going to China!). Cass, regardless of what happens, know that you are a strong and beautiful person and you mean a lot to me. Thank you for trusting me, thank you for listening and thank you for just being you...

Michele & Bill... I know Rick misses you more... but I do miss you. Even knowing you're an email/phone call away, and we didn't see you often enough as it was... it's a mind thing. You're across the country, in a different TIME ZONE for Cripes' sake... but I wish I could hug you one more time. Michele, when we left that last night, I told you I loved you. I do, friendly, sisterly type, just so's ya know *smile* ... you never answered. I don't even think you acknowledged. I don't know if you were distancing yourself, or what... but I think of that. I probably shouldn't say anything, but there, I said it anyway. I hope you guys find happiness in BC.

Lee-Ann... will probably never read this. I currently don't care if she does or not, and I won't give her the address at this point. If she finds it, it's another thing, but she won't find it from me. I had a very interesting discussion about Lee-Ann with my boss of all people yesterday in a coaching session. I haven't even told Rick about this one yet, I keep forgetting. Hey, I'll tell him when I'm done typing, or he'll just read about it tomorrow LOL (Honey, if I forget, please forgive me). Apparently, a few months back, I told Norbert (my boss) about the fact that Lee-Ann isn't talking to me. I can't even remember how it came up in conversation yesterday, but I basically gave him the run-down of our encounter (and lack of one - see entry 1 for details LOL). He was dumb-founded that she would be so tactless. (I Think We're Alone Now by Tiffany started playing, I haven't heard this in years!!) He honestly cannot understand what her problem is. Hell, I've taken responsibility for it. I've even paid Mary back the $150 we owed her from last year. Does Lee-Ann pay for the fish tank and equipment that she so conveniently "lost" that we lent her?? NO! Does Lee-Ann care that she is depriving her children of knowing their Aunt? NO! And if she does, far be it for me to know about it. I love Pete and all three kids to death... Lee-Ann I couldn't give a shit about right now. She's my sister, and I'll always love her, but I don't have to like her. Even if she does deem me worthy, I will never trust her again. I won't be anything but surface with her. The kids I will spoil to my heart's content... You know what? She's probably doing this on purpose because she wants to hurt me. And you know what else?? FUCK HER! There, I said it. Lee-Ann can go blow. If it's so bad that my MOM, who has multiple times said that she's staying out of it, gets involved, then Lee-Ann can continue to be a bitch and go live in her own little world. Just let the kids out to play once in a while as you closet yourself in your own galaxy, Bitch.

Ok... Calm down, Vicky... I've gotten out of the habit of swearing unless I'm in the company of one that does a lot, or unless I'm pissed off. It's just so FRUSTRATING!! Ok... I'll get off the topic of Lee-Ann...

The dog does need to go out soon... and it's after 11, I should go soon. For some strange reason I'm not tired. Hunh. *shrug* I guess I'll play solitaire, or the SIMS! hehe, until I'm tired enough to sleep...............................ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............